FIRST LOVE 'lesbos' Clare Age: 19
Hi all you gentle readers, I accidentally found this site while I was searching for a rational solution my suffering emotional situation.
I'll tell you my story, I have always had the doubt that I was a lesbian, despite feeling attraction for the opposite sex, so I also started thinking about being bisexual and what today is still not clear to me even if I think that ' and that love is enough for anyone to try. Last year
I'm in love with one of my classmates, even if I tried to deny it to myself, but I knew that she always liked and who became our close bond, I could not help but fall in love or infatuation strongly. This situation has further burdened my doubts and that was combined with other situations that I had, previous to it! So one day I decided to enroll in a chat for lesbians, although arriving at this decision had to spend months and several attempts. The day after my registration I met a girl, she contacted me privately and asked my contact msn and I forbade him without problems.
This girl, I'll call Frank (21 years, impressed me immediately, as soon as I saw his picture into an icon and was temperamentally quite curious! Thus began our long talks between the afternoon and evening, we had almost set times, were always the same expected appointments. I noticed that more and more over the course of the days I could not help but feel the idea thrilled me. So I started to go out less and stay at the computer until she was gone, ignoring everything else. I told her about my situation "sexual" and asked a lot about the world of lesbians, trying to melt all my curiosity. The relationship grew and strengthened day by day both in contemporanemaente \\ 'that in a \\' and other distance of two weeks I asked her mobile number, she gave me. Started a message, and this increased the time when we were together, my whole day was focused on her and I noticed more and more lust for me not only physical pleasure, as he felt the day I met her in the photo icon, but I drew a lot of character, it was everything I wanted and expected to find in my own sex, something finally returned for more! SMS increased the questions, doubts and revelations, in fact we confided to wish each other \\ 's an \\' s other, just two weeks of knowledge, and this resulted in a deep relationship of love and desire, So \\ 's we did every day of the long-term phone sex, and came and told us a month and a half from our knowledge of love! I really love her and I love all \\ 'hours, but reappears one day his ex says he loves her, she wanted to and not withstanding that you feel me. So dear Francesca falls into an abyss of doubt and realize that it did not completely forget his ex, that he had awakened to the beautiful dream that was living with me and all the fears and doubts about our relationship, that of most went too quickly, at a distance (she is of Campania and Puglia I) and virtual inevitably emerge. So every two weeks at the rate of falls into crisis and left me to take days of reflection, but feeling strongly my lack \\ 's back on his next steps and asked the prey. But crises are becoming more frequent and she decides to loosen the relationship, moving away from me. This occurs before our first meeting. In fact, we meet and spend an afternoon together, and I remain completely satisfied with her physical appearance, but it does not bother me that much, I was blinded compeltamente by surprise and almost everything else was just as the \\ 'I had imagined, I was excited and could not wait compeltamente \\ 's time to see her again. So we decide to see a second time after three weeks since she, too, despite his doubts, he feels strongly attracted to me, but his ex is getting more insistent, and she becomes increasingly cold, now it was a wall all my displays of affection, and went away more and more! So I decided to persevere and cavarle out a few answers and she tells me she is not sure of wanting to commit, will not commit itself at the moment, that has not completely forgotten his ex, but that's fine with me, and that "I draw \\" a lot! I fully acknowledge the reality of which I already had a \\ 'idea, but that she did not want to completely unfold. So I disappear for two days, also taken from my anger, and she comes to me for a clarification, saying he had been wrong, that he built a sand castle and does not want to be more to his indecision, so I said he had decided that at least for the moment there does not bring anything with us! I tell her I love her and I do not want to give her, so we face the question and I always talk about the usual things, saying that despite what \\ 's is among us, wants to wipe that c \\' was for because it is for she was a misjudgment, and argues that we must accept the current situation. In contrast, I continue to disappear and she is always looking for me, one day a phone call, the \\ 'other a \\' another ring, then an SMS and my question "why do you seek me? \\", She says she wants to Simplify the feel and respond to any questions that the days are long and without me empty! So I wonder what you want from me, because I do not understand this situation, I do not understand you and everything makes me suffer! Seeking to fill all my days to clear the void he has left, but every night is back with a trivial excuse and do not forget! I suffered deep jealousy towards him because of his past relationships, his ex insisitente, which once caused her to leave me accordingly rejected it, and the continuous calls of the same, but also of its banal netlog and facebook pages or its outputs in a disco or friends! The most heartbreaking was the change from an idyllic relationship in this report that the cold would break those walls that have formed, but fails. I'm just aware that I want to be with her, despite then the beautiful chaos successomi home because of her and our relationship and want it back to our beautiful dream! She will not let me forget to let, which I fully understand our new relationship, her intentions, her attitude and I'm here and I suffer all this subisco awaiting his decision, although I'm trying to divert my attention on new knowledge or interest and is trying to disappear from his days might help me to delete it or pull it, because of my constant absence, to tell you that I miss, that wants to be with me and then make a final decision!
