AFRAID OF LOVE? seas Age: 24 Hi doctor .. my story is very long and difficult hours and told him about it from the beginning. I am a girl 24 years and do the job. At fourteen I knew unragazzo who had recently moved near my house, was two years older than me and he was the one to come forward. Now began a story, we were very well together, he had a bad family situation and I wanted to do a little bit the champion of justice. We've been together three years, until suddenly one day I woke up and I realized not to love him .. nieto not to try more for him (if anything, I tried something). I also say that among other things in the years when we were together, while the parents are separated. I l I left crying because I felt sorry for him, but I was aware that I would be fine without him because I felt nothing. Indeed it did. So far no problem, so I continued my life more peaceful and happy than before, totally separated from him. I was still in high school and shortly after the end of my story, two of my classmates still ups and downs that have caratterizzatola their history last 3 ½ years, seemed to be too arrivandoal capolinea.nel meantime I was living a new knowledge with a guy who mipiaceva lot. Meanwhile my two classmates seem lasciarsidefinitivamente, she betrays him, he forgives, but he is opening shortly after the decision to leave, she then begins a new story with unaltro guy, he seems to live it his life. In short this seems to pull emolla has come to end, even though nobody really believed in the classroom, ioper prima.Premetto that she was a friend of mine and confided in me. I nelfrattempo I lived my acquaintance with this boy I piacevatantissimo and which I liked a lot, but even here there were ups and downs, and luiuna evening from a kiss to a friend of mine ... I was very bad but we decided diperdonarlo. Meanwhile the ex-boyfriend of my friend, who attended the class miastessa, F., begins to behave with me in a strange way, gave me ipizzicotti cheeks, gave me the smiles .... all so strange to partesua, whereas it has always been very shy and closed with almost everyone ... Except that after a few months go on a school trip, and I I had my \\ "story \\" with that guy I mentioned before I piacevatantissimo .. however ... escapes the kiss with my classmate F., exdella my friend ... I never thought I was going to happen. He, F., mipiaceva not even a little, I felt bad. But those four days I've lived gitascolastica fine with him, even though I felt sorry for laltro a little boy, I was losing someone I loved for one that does not mipiaceva ... but in those days in Florence I did not care about anything. .. I solodetta .. \\ "vivitela \\" ... But I knew that to return the other guy and not because they wanted more miavrebbe the envy of my classmates happened between me and the avrebberoraccontato F. Indeed it did. Come back leresponsabilità I took what I had done and gave up the boy, chepero still like a lot, and I was hoping for a insieme.intanto our return to F. I have talked about this and I clearly said ragazzzo Chein school trip I wanted to have fun, el I did with him, and that all erainiziato and died there for me, and there could never be a sequel Tranoi. and this is where it all started, here begins my story doctor ... ilresto .. it was just a premise .... When I said these words to F. There rimasemale, but he did not see (he has always wanted to hide suoisentimenti) .. I said, \\ "OK \\". But then during the following days at school, I stavavicino, never leave me ... and I returned .. played and laughed as duefidanzatini. But I kept thinking that I did not like ... sisono then schools closed, came the summer and I did not think I would have seen the .. einvece, arrivavno me his ring and his invitations to go out ... I refused eribadivo I did not want anything from him, and did not want to suffer for colpamia .. then he left me alone. but then came back ... I for divertimentoiniziai to go out sometimes .. I refused but then again .. then when Misenta alone or I had nothing to do, we go out, so we spent the summer flying wing, until he began to simmer and me said ... allorasi made her feel less. I started for the first time to realize that potevoperderlo .. and I was afraid to run away .. so I stopped, we got insieme.avevo 18. \\ 't without a troubled history, however, started to eparanoie my jealousy towards his ex, so he was no longer closed and confidential as at the beginning .. All posts and rings ... I never sent a message and not midava never displays of affection. between crises and letting rimettersiinsieme and continuous (the decision to leave the area around him and that he always took with me always) it's been three and a half years .. Miami, but he said that we were incompatible, I have since been to a psychologist .. and I think I've had emotional dependency. after three and a half years I halasciata. and finished everything and I did not want to beg because I thought that if we could overcome everything donut .. I fell into a sort of depression, everything looked gray, with the help of psychologist I came out. qualchemese after I met another guy and I started another story when EFIN after 8 months I have not suffered one bit ... indeed, I realized he never forgot F. Dinon, he never stopped hoping for maybe unritorno ... so I do suffer with him ... he's a little standoffish, but glipiaccio, he likes me ... suffered for me .. see you as friends but we know that we can not be (are things I feel that I understand why loconosco, not because he says, he never says anything that feels) ... understands that he would like another, and tells me the same story that siamoincompatibili. I'm like this then I am interested in his friend that he himself did presented a night .. He seems indifferent, but I know him ... just pretends to be indifferent. I started to feel with Lamiche, because I was interested and he really gets in the middle. Cercado and does not want to put a spoke in the wheel, "threatens" the friend not to speak, tells him that their relationship would not be the same .. the months pass, I feel less and less el friend .. He tells me he does not want to lose the friendship of F. and wants to let go .. I insist ... but then I see F, you again, get back together ... once a week and he leaves me again ... and sclerotic, I accused the story lived after him .. chide me how quickly I started with that guy .. comes back to his conclusion that we ourselves do not can go and leave me. I leave it to lose now. cosiognuno and returns to his life. But after a few months to write some text messages .. luinon resp ... I want away, tells me that you see with another girl and this is jealous .. Then I learn that was not true. avoids me and avoids all postidove could meet ... I do sometimes I feel .. months after his standoffish chee .. begins to answer every time, in friendship .. and I too ... laconclusione of course is that we put ourselves back together .. This time he seems to be serious .. but after five months, one week after our summer vacation ... he leaves me again. the motivation is always the stessa.siamo incompatible, we fight too often. it's been years ... I'm still here to do This push and pull, now I put a definitive point. but to myself I wonder why? He is a person of sound principles. I want to find a true answer: because I do not like to run away, or because he just afraid of love? I heard about philofobia .. could it be? beyond everything I put a point on this story and I hope that the future reserves to something even more beautiful. thank you very much. Regards.
